Sawyer often tells me he feels like a failure, or that he feels like he’s stupid. He has told me multiple times now that he doesn’t know why he’s even alive. I tell him “God doesn’t make mistakes, and He made you because He thought the world needed one of you.” What I don’t tell Sawyer is that I feel like a failure because I can’t just magically make him feel better.
A single day or month for world autism awareness never feels like enough and sometimes feels a little laughable because every day in our house is autism awareness day. There isn’t a day that goes by that our lives are not affected by autism and its nuances.
In 2025, nobody should be using the r word anymore; it’s NOT ok.
Last night Sawyer asked me a question I’ve been waiting for since we first told him about his autism diagnosis: ” Momma, why do some kids in a family have autism and some don’t?”
I have added a few really helpful links to the Resources page for those who may be looking for information about autism, or where to find services or even grants for equipment!
Sawyer may be outgrowing my lap, but in my heart he will always be my baby boy.
With the rates of autism diagnosis skyrocketing, I feel that autism training should be required for anyone who has to deal with the public, but specially for those in law enforcement.
The last few weeks in our house have been hard, y’all. Trigger warning: This post will discuss self harm. I’ve
Yesterday, my son stood up in front of a classroom of his peers and apologized for being alive. As a mother, I cannot find the words to fully explain how it felt to hear my 11-year-old son say those words. It’s heart-shattering and terrifying, and it’s a feeling no parent should ever have to feel.
Most of the time, Sawyer is my easy going happy-go-lucky kid who is full of laughter and hugs. But sometimes he has days like this- days where something as small as losing his pencil can set him off and send him into a downward spiral- and it’s sad, and hard, and ugly.
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Vanderbilt Kennedy Center is a very special place to our family. It’s where Sawyer was first diagnosed with autism, and it was through their incredible programs and research that he first received the therapy he needed to thrive. Our current political administration has pulled funding that pays for progams and services that help families like ours. Please consider donating to VKC to help others continue to receive the vital programs and services needed to help them succeed.
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