Categories Autism Family Life

Questioning Why

Last night Sawyer asked me a question I've been waiting for since we first told him about his autism diagnosis: " Momma, why do some kids in a family have autism and some don't?"

Categories Autism

Hard and Heavy Days

The last few weeks in our house have been hard, y’all. Trigger warning: This post will discuss self harm. I’ve written before about how hard change can be for Sawyer; he is very much a child that thrives on routine and sameness, and any little change to his everyday routine can be enough to send…

Autism and Bullying

Yesterday, my son stood up in front of a classroom of his peers and apologized for being alive. As a mother, I cannot find the words to fully explain how it felt to hear my 11-year-old son say those words. It’s heart-shattering and terrifying, and it’s a feeling no parent should ever have to feel. 

Categories Autism Family Life

The End of The World

Most of the time, Sawyer is my easy going happy-go-lucky kid who is full of laughter and hugs. But sometimes he has days like this- days where something as small as losing his pencil can set him off and send him into a downward spiral- and it's sad, and hard, and ugly.

First Day Jitters

Today Sawyer starts his first day of middle school. Most people would probably think "Man, that kid is excited for school to start!" What they don't know is that he wasn't excited- he was overly prepared because he was a ball of nerves- worrying about being bullied, getting lost, or the work being too hard.